In exactly one week Sebastian and I will pack up our bags, our cat, our many boxes of books and travel 4,364 km from Montreal to Vancouver to start a new adventure.
There is a whole lot of excitement, expectation, fear, some sadness, and overall the feeling that I am doing something completely new with my life. Moving away for university was a big step, but it was padded with the comforts of a fairly regimented school structure and more friends coming along for the ride than I ever could have hoped for. It didn't feel so much that I had moved away, but more that my entire social life and most of my interests had just transplanted themselves into a new city. A city that was, in the grand scheme of things, relatively close to home.
This is different. I am moving further away from my family, friends, and city than ever before.
It is beautiful in a way, the experience of drastic change. It makes you re-examine your own habits and overhaul those long fermented routines. The opportunity to up-haul your entire existence and start new doesn't come around that often. Jobs become steady and hard to leave, relationships form, and that intangible feeling of home starts to settle around everything that was once new. Not to say that you should ever feel stuck, but only that it becomes harder and harder to leave a place the deeper your roots plant themselves (sometimes without you noticing).
So here we are, stuck in between, waiting for this big change and completely uncertain about what is to come. It's a funny feeling, to be in limbo like this. It's been one month since I quit my job; one month since I had any semblance of structure to my days. I loved the initial freedom, but I work best and am happiest when I am busy.
On the other hand, I am so grateful I've had this time in Toronto to spend with the people I love. I am going to miss everyone so much, and my heart aches a little at the thought of leaving so many people I care so much about. But isn't that part of the magic of love? I know these relationships can withstand distance and I am sure that I will be back soon with all the hugs and love I have to offer.
So, cheers to newness and change! The next time I talk to you I will be in Vancouver. In the meanwhile I'll be here, sipping on this refreshing watermelon lime gingerade (maybe with a splash of gin), packing my bags and setting my sights on everything that is to come. xo
watermelon lime gingerade
This is also really nice with gin if you want to make it a cocktail :)
- 4.5 cups cubed watermelon (apprx. 1/4 of a watermelon)
- 2 inch piece of ginger, peeled and grated
- juice of 1 lime
Blend everything together in an upright blender on high for about 30 seconds. Serve cold over ice if desired. You can strain this if you prefer something smoother, but personally I like the pulp.